50 Shades of Grey by E L James

*** Seriously Christian Grey is friggin’ hot… just saying.****

Honestly I could not wait to tackle this topic. “50 Shades of Grey.” Seriously, I read the series and really liked it… as an entertaining piece of work. I actually read the entire series before realizing that it was originally a Twilight fanfic.

I heard so much horrible stuff after I read the series and it swayed my thinking for a while there. My only complaint was that Anna was so…. mousy. I didn’t like that. But seriously though, the whole storyline was kind of messed up, if you really thought about it.

***Can I have you for Valentines Day????????!!!!****

I understand that fiction and literature should hold meaning. I get that. But, there are pieces of works that the sole purpose of is to entertain. I didn’t think too hard on this book series because I knew that it was just a fun story… that involves whips and bondage. If you think too hard on the content, I can see why you would get upset. I’m sure the BDSM community was outraged by this portrayal of BDSM, but honestly? If this was a Twilight fanfic, it hit it right on the nose. It changed Vampirism to BDSM and it did it in the way that showed how it’s totally making it’s own rules. For example, vampires should not sparkle. I mean seriously. And the vampires strayed from some of the other traditional lures about vampires. So the BDSM portrayal is kind of like how the vampires were not portrayed correctly.

And honestly? I did like Christian Grey….. he was dark and alluring. There was just something about him that spoke to me. Kind of like how I used to be a little attracted to Edward when I first read Twilight. As far as characters go, he was very mysterious and I’m happy with the guy they picked for the movie adaptation.

Anastasia Steele was exactly like Bella…. but what else did you expect? Sometimes I felt like Christian was seeing a different person than what we were seeing. She was so boring sometimes. It’s like her life was nothing until she met Christian Grey… which feels like the truth when you think about it.

I’ve spent years worried that people will make fun of me for liking certain things. And most of the time it works. But I have to stick by and say that I did like 50 Shades and I will definitely see the movie. Although I won’t see it till a few weeks after it comes out, because who wants to join that crowd? Coming from someone who works at a movie theater, I dread having to go to work. If you are going to bring your girlfriend to see this movie, you best believe you’re getting some that night. Just saying.

So overall I did enjoy this series and screw the haters. Literally and figuratively *wink wink*. I am not weird for liking this series…. just so you know.



Anxiety can be a good character for a book

So I was going to make my next post about “50 Shades of Grey” but then I realized that I really wanted to talk about the effects of anxiety.

Most people don’t really want to discuss this topic, because it’s too embarrassing. For those of you who don’t suffer from anxiety… I envy you. I get anxious about almost anything. It can be kind of crippling, but we have got to take what we got in life. Every day I wake up with the crippling fear that I’m either doing something wrong already, or that I don’t have enough time to do whatever needs to be done. This normally leads to me not doing anything because I’m so crippled by this anxiety that it’s hard to do anything. And maybe I shouldn’t be venting this on the internet, where a ton of strangers will pick my brain for me, but I think it’s a case that needs to be brought up.

Some people are productive about their anxiety, but for me it’s really hard to get productive with it. I tend to watch TV shows that don’t require me to think or even to follow along with the storyline. So Family Guy or American Dad. And then I spend the time I’m sitting around playing Flappy Doge. Seriously, I have a problem.

Anxiety is the worst part about me. I tend to be so anxious I don’t do something till the last minute. Although I have to say that most of the stories I have written have benefited from this. I agonize over scenes a lot and tend to over analyze every scene I write. I tend to do this a lot even when I rewatch shows over again. Like “How I Met Your Mother” or “American Dad.” I find the little inconsistencies and obsess over them. I have a lot of time on my hands now that I’m only part time at work, but I use so many excuses of why I’m not working on my novel or anything. I use my mom, my internship, and my room as excuses. I can never give myself a break sometimes.

I think the point that I’m trying to get across is the fact that anxiety has run my life and has made me make the choices I have. This year I want to put an end to that and to not give in to my excuses. I will try to focus solely on my creative work. And that’s all that should count for me. I should be happy with my life. I feel like I can take on the world.

I would also love to write into my own character. If you think about it, everyone has the potential to be a character from a book. We can make ourselves out to be whoever we  want to be.

Next post I want to talk about “50 Shades…” and then make a tribute to my grandma, who sadly passed away this month. I will truly miss her.

*I also want to say that I believe ghosts haunt the internet so there is a good chance my grandma would see this…. just saying. When I die it would be awesome to lurk the deep corners of the internet.

“The Selection” series by Kiera Cass

What can I say about this series? Mostly what I came away with was, in a sense… WHY CAN’T MAXON BE REAL????? I fangirled so bad for this series. It was easy to understand and easy to sink my teeth into. The best way I can describe it is a very dressed up version of the “Hunger Games.” It’s set in a dystopian society where people are split into “castes” and basically, to keep the peace, a bunch of girls are selected to win the heart of the royal prince. People are chosen from every caste, so that they can feel like part of the country. It focuses on this girl named America (seriously, if you’re going for symbolism you really didn’t think too much about this one) who gets chosen because she put her name for the benefit of her secret boyfriend. Sex is basically a crime, at least when it comes to people who aren’t married. So most people get married early because they really can’t wait.

Anyways, before I give away too much of the plot, I just want to state that this book had so much going on. There was the symbolism that you could see on the surface, but the underlying significance of the content really spoke to me. When I read Young Adult novels, I tend to think a lot about what the writer is trying to convey. The content matter might seem too on the surface. But there is so much going on, even if the content feels too easy. Like those fairy tales. They are for children, but there is so much to dissect and analyze. I mean symbolism can be found anywhere. And maybe some of them are too on the nose, but there are others that you really have to think about.

As an overall review, I would recommend you read this book. The ending is so predictable from the start, but there are so much that will keep you reading this series.

****Spoiler alerts******

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“Horns” by Joe Hill: book and movie review


Overall rating: 5/5 stars. Seriously, it was that good.

I’m going to start off with the fact that it really took me about a month to finish this book. This book is not in my favorite genre, young adult, but I picked it up anyway. I mainly picked it up because I knew that Daniel Radcliffe was going to be in a production of this movie and I just found out it was a book. This book got me thinking about so many different things in life. I’ve had several different conversations with one of my co-workers about some of the topics this book brings up. I think that in order to do a good review, I need to talk about what I think that this book can teach me as not only a writer, but a person living on this Earth. (Then I will also review the movie, because lets face it. The movie really needs to be mentioned.)

“Horns” by Joe Hill is about this guy named Ig Parrish, who is accused of killing his girlfriend. A year later, Ig wakes up one morning after a night of drinking with horns on his head. The horns make people tell him the honest truth about themselves. It can also influence what other people do. Ig decides to use this power to help find the person who really killed his girlfriend.

What I thought was most thought provoking about this story was the symbolism. There is the obvious God vs. the Devil, and then there is the symbolism of the cat and the snake. Snakes play a big part of this book, as minions to Ig’s will. They are the companions to the Devil. The cat is a whole different story that is intertwined within this book. I thought the author used the symbolism of these two creatures well to bring depth to the two opposing characters. Symbolism works to help create a different world for the reader. We are brought into the fictional part of the story, but at the same time, it goes against the fabric of the reality of the world within the piece of fiction. We are brought into the setting of a normal small town without the use of magic or any other supernatural events. And these weird and strange events happen… so we must kind of conclude that the use of symbolism and supernatural elements help drive this story.

There is a part in the book where Ig is talking to the snakes like disciples. He’s kind of comparing the Devil to humanity. He brings up an excellent point about how the Devil is the one who is in love with humanity. We all sin at one point in our lives. Who is going to love you for it, according to the Bible? The Devil. The Devil loves you for the bad and shameful things you do. It’s really God who condemns you for being a sinner. And I totally sounded like some kind of Devil worshiper. Which I am not. We all make our own decisions in life and God is going to love us no matter what. But that’s besides the point.

Another good point that I found while reading this book was the distinction between character and writer. There is literally a page in the book where the character is referring to Asian Americans as the “Slanted” and basically being very racist towards Asians. Some people might hate this book because of how racist that sounds, but those people are just showing their ignorance. A character is an entirely different entity outside of the writer. The character could be the most messed up person on the planet, but this should never be portrayed as an insight into the thinking of the writer. A character can have their own separate thought and not have it represent the views of the writer. If I wanted to write a character who was pro-Hitler, that should never make people assume that I am too.

The writing in this book was so impressive that I had to put the book down a few times in order to clear my head. I was hooked from the first chapter. I thought it was great how it started out with a way to clear his name, but then later just became about revenge. I mean, if it was a predictable story, Ig would triumph over the real killer and his name would be cleared and everyone would feel bad that they accused him of being a monster. But we have a character who wants to be the good guy, but later kind of embraces his bad side.

I don’t like to point out the use of perspective, but I’m going to do that for this piece. The fact that it was in third person made it really terrifying. Getting inside different people’s heads gave the story a different element that I can only describe as jaw dropping. The ease in which the writer goes between each story and perspective is very inspirational for my own work. I would love to be able to go between each story with ease. I have a hard time with transitions between scenes. I know I need to work on this and I’m hoping I can get better as the years go on.

Now… for the movie!!!

I actually watched the movie half way through reading this book. I could not wait to see how Daniel Radcliffe would pull off Ig Parrish. So I bought it on iTunes and watched it with my mom.

Let me just say that the movie in no way spoiled anything for me. I had already found out who really killed Ig’s girlfriend so everything else kind of went a different way than the book. Normally I dislike movies that stray from the book, but in this case, the movie was just as gruesome as the book. Maybe a little bit more. I can see why they made cuts to the story. I really enjoyed having an interpretation of this novel be enjoyable to watch. It did not stick with the original outline of the book, but it drew the viewer in nevertheless.

I would recommend this movie to anyone who loves gory thrillers. Plus, Daniel Radcliffe was amazing in this movie. And yes, there is a sort of sex scene. Imagine Harry Potter having sex… well he  had to have had sex in order to have those kids in the Epilogue.

I know the movie review wasn’t that great, but I’m more of a book reviewer than a movie critic. I hope you liked my review and all.


Why you just aren’t in a relationship right now

I wrote a blog post a while ago about how I have never been in a relationship. The past few weeks have taught me a lot about why I might not be even remotely ready to begin a relationship. A lot of people assume that dating is all about confidence and if you portray this well enough, a guy will surely ask you on a date. Let me tell you this. If you don’t go out anywhere, you’re never going to even meet anyone new. So stop complaining that  you can never find a guy when all you do is work and sleep. I’ve found out that even just going places alone can help build confidence. It makes me feel more independent and it gives me the opportunity to at least meet someone new. I have the whole going out part down, but meeting new people is a lot harder than it seems.

There are several people on my Facebook feed who complain way too much about not being liked and how no one wants to hang out with them. And even when I ask to hang out with them I am still met with a no. If you ever feel like no one wants to hang out with you, whenever you get asked to hang out, even if you are busy, always make it a yes. Do not turn it down because you’re tired, or it’s not exactly what you want to do. If you say yes to hanging out with more people, even if it is outside of your comfort zone, more people will want to hang out with you. I’m always up to hang out with friends.

If you are busy at the time, tell them that you are busy, but please don’t slam the door in their face, metaphorically speaking. Make it clear that you want to hang out another time.

Another thing that I wanted to talk about is how Facebook and social media is an illusion. Those people you think are having way more fun than you are only putting up the moments they think are fun and worth while. They never show the boring, minute details of their lives. I’m sure a lot of people sit at home for hours on end just watching TV. So never feel lonely when you’re just sitting home alone. And seriously, you don’t need to post every five minutes for people to know that you’re alive… or whatever. Go out and explore the world without having to make a Facebook status about it.

So far I am almost half way to my goal of 100 posts by my birthday (April 19th) and I really am excited. This blog started off as a place for reviews, but it has become so much more. I’m almost finished with the book “Horns” by Joe Hill, so I will write a book review next. I also saw the movie featuring Daniel Radcliffe. Yes, i watched the movie before I finished the book. But it is totally cool because the book is nothing like the movie. Both are equally as awesome. I am slowly making my way through my to be read pile. I would love to read ten books by the end of  this month. So I will get back to you guys shortly with short reviews for each book I read.

I just watched “Into the Woods” for the second time all the way through. Here is a really sexy picture of Chris Pine when he was doing “Agony,” the best part of the movie.

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