I know that my blog is mainly for book reviews and writing, but I thought I’d take some time to write about the recent events in Orlando. I am very devastated by what happened and cannot begin to fathom the horror families of the deceased are experiencing right now.
Let me begin with a small shooting, not 24 hours before the massive shoot out. Christina Grimmie. Only 22 and a former competitor on “The Voice.” She started off on Youtube, having been signed on to Selena Gomez’s parents’ record company. I started following her after this video:
I loosely followed her when she was in “The Voice” and had forgotten about her for a little bit. Every time I saw her videos I was inspired. She had this energy that you just couldn’t miss. She put her heart into the songs and didn’t seem ashamed to leave it on the stage.
She had so much going for her and the fact that this man singled her out really gets to me. Was this some kind of personal vendetta against her? Or maybe it was something else. But for whatever reason, this person decided to take an innocent life. I can see, maybe, wanting to kill someone like Trump or even just someone who did something so wrong. But to kill a performer like that? I may not have known Christina personally, but this devastates me more than I thought it even could.
That’s not to say that I wasn’t horrified by the Pulse shooting. In no way am I saying that I care more about this singer’s death than the 50 deaths that happened at Pulse. I will get to that in a moment. My heart breaks from all of this senseless violence. I saw this video that Sam Tsui posted as a tribute to Christina. It’s horrifyingly beautiful and I hope everyone thinks so.
As soon as I hit the link I couldn’t help crying. It feels like a dream that this is even happening. I hope Christina is looking down and seeing all the love we all have for her.
I want to write a letter to Christina, if you guys are willing to let me.
I haven’t met you, but you were a big part of my growth. I saw your videos and wished I was as talented as you. I was very happy to hear that you got into the Voice and how each judge turned their seat. What an accomplishment! You have inspired several people by doing what you love and I could tell by all of your videos that you loved doing what you did. I wanted to be like you, where I was happy to be doing what I love. No one can tell exactly why you were killed, but just know that you died too young. I firmly believe that if you’ve changed someone’s life, your life won’t have had no meaning. You’ve inspired tons of people and left a big footprint in this world. You will not be forgotten. The Heavens just got a talented and beautiful angel.
Sean Astin (Sam from Lord of the Rings) posted this amazing quote from “Two Towers” that really broke my heart in two, in regards to the shooting:
FRODO: I can’t do this, Sam.
SAM: I know. It’s all wrong. By rights we shouldn’t even be here. But we are. It’s like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were. And sometimes you didn’t want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy. How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened.
But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something. Even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back only they didn’t. Because they were holding on to something.
FRODO: What are we holding on to, Sam?
SAM: That there’s some good in this world, Mr. Frodo. And it’s worth fighting for.
I think in times of crisis, we tend to walk around like chickens with our heads cut off. We don’t know what to do or how to act. I certainly didn’t know what to do when I heard of Christina’s death and the shooting at Pulse. I felt bad for not being able to do anything and even more upset when I was enjoying my day. Things like this should never be a norm.
I also want to bring up that hate is not a mental illness. If it was, I could claim to hate Trump and it’d be sort of ok to kill him. I mean I dislike Trump, but it’d be totally wrong to kill him. By saying that I was mentally unstable because of my hatred isn’t correct. Cause you do know that our society will lessen your sentence if you have a disability. So if you claim hatred such as racism or homophobia for why you murder someone, it could change the outcome of your sentence. Which is not fair. And plenty of people will remark “where on your birth certificate does it say life has to be fair?” Yeah, I’ve heard that one before.
I will never claim to be politically aware. It’s hard to filter through what most people say into what is the truth and what is opinion. What I do know is this. This was a terrible situation, yes. But, if we let fear and anger control us, we may end up repeating history. Germany “feared” the Jews and they put them in internment camps. America feared the Japanese and put them into internment camps. Whenever there is fear from any other country, the solution always seems to be segregation and internment.
This idea that Trump has to build a wall is foolishness. And the fact that he’s blaming an entire religion, Muslim, for all the terrorist attacks, is just foolish. Sure, some terrorist attacks are from Muslim EXTREMISTS!!! But there are a ton of terrorist attacks from white guys. Oh, but they aren’t “terrorists” if they aren’t dark skinned. So far there have been 133 mass shootings in the USA in 2016 alone and we are only halfway through the year! And I bet most of them are from white kids/adults.
To conclude before I go on this rant, I am devastated to hear about these shootings. We need to do more than just pray for Orlando. We need to better our society so that this isn’t happening as often.